The Coffin Buzzed Before Dawn At The Wake, And Her Son Knew Why-olweny - Chainityai

The Coffin Buzzed Before Dawn At The Wake, And Her Son Knew Why-olweny

The first time Omar asked to close the coffin, my mother pretended not to hear him.

She was standing by the kitchen doorway with a plate of sweet bread in her hands, looking at the living room as if she no longer recognized the house where she had raised two daughters.

Rebecca had always said she wanted to be mourned at home.

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She said funeral homes smelled like watered coffee, cold carpet, and strangers pretending to know your pain.

She wanted prayers in my mother’s living room, a candle by the front window, family packed shoulder to shoulder, and somebody in the kitchen making too much noise because quiet made death feel even bigger.

So that was what we gave her.

At least, that was what we tried to give her.

Rebecca lay in the coffin near the front windows.

Her hair was pinned back too neatly.

Her hands were folded over one another in a way she never rested them in life.

And she was wearing a burgundy dress I had never seen before.

That dress bothered me from the moment I walked in.

My sister hated tight clothes.

She wore soft pants, white sneakers, and the same canvas bag she filled with snacks, receipts, spare keys, markers, and a tiny sewing kit.

But Omar told everyone the burgundy dress was her favorite.

He said it with his hand on the side of his neck.

That was how I knew he was lying.

Omar had always been good at sounding reasonable in rooms full of people who did not want trouble.

He could lower his voice, soften his eyes, and make even a demand sound like concern.

But when he lied, his fingers found his throat.

They found it when he said Rebecca had fallen down the stairs.

They found it when he said the hospital had no questions.

They found it when he told my mother the burial needed to happen early because it would be easier on Emiliano.

And they found it again when he looked at the coffin and asked, “How soon can we close it?”

The words moved through the room like a draft.

No one answered.

Not my mother.

Not Aunt Clara.

Not the neighbors pretending to pray harder.

Only Emiliano reacted.

My nephew sat on a kitchen chair pulled so close to the coffin that his knees touched the wood stand.

He had been there since the body arrived.

Eight years old, in a navy sweater, clutching a worn green stuffed dinosaur under one arm, staring at his mother’s face without blinking.

He was not hysterical.

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