The word alive landed between them harder than she intended. Caleb looked at her over the rim of the cup. “You say things like that deliberately?”

“I try to. Sometimes I fail.”

He took one sip, frowned, and looked annoyed that he could not criticize it. “It’s acceptable.”

“High praise from a hostage.”

“I’m not a hostage.”

“You just described your marriage that way yesterday.”

“I was being dramatic.”

“I know. I ignored it.”

By the third day, he stopped telling her to leave. By the fifth, he asked what book she carried in her coat pocket. By the seventh, when she opened the curtains three inches without permission, he said her name with such warning that the nurse in the hallway stopped walking.

“It’s cloud cover,” Lila said. “The sun isn’t attacking.”

“That’s not the point.”

“No. The point is that the room smells like surrender.”

His face went still.

For a moment she thought she had gone too far. Then Caleb looked past her toward the gray winter light entering his room. His jaw tightened, but he did not tell her to close the curtains. His eyes moved over the lawn below, the bare maples, the old fountain drained for winter, the rose garden cut down to thorny sticks.

“My mother planted those roses,” he said after a long while.

Lila turned carefully, as if sudden movement might break the sentence. “Did she?”

“She thought every serious house needed something ridiculous in it. My father wanted boxwood. She wanted roses that climbed everywhere and ignored instructions.” His voice changed so slightly that only someone listening for pain would have heard it. “She died when I was eleven.”

“I’m sorry.”

“People always say that.”

“Because there isn’t a better thing to say.”

He looked at her then, and for once there was no sarcasm waiting at the edge of his mouth.

“No,” he said. “I suppose there isn’t.”

Later, when Lila carried the empty cup out, she left the curtains open. An hour after that, passing the door on her way downstairs, she saw they were still open.

It was not a miracle. Not yet. It was only three inches of light.

But three inches was not nothing.

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