She Called Her Dad on Easter—Then the Thorn Gates Opened Again-mdue - Chainityai

She Called Her Dad on Easter—Then the Thorn Gates Opened Again-mdue

Easter always used to make my house feel less empty.

Maybe it was the smell of ham warming in the oven, or the sweet glaze sticking to the spoon, or the way sunlight came through the front window and landed on the same floorboards Callie had crossed a thousand times when she was little.

Maybe it was the quiet.

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Not sad quiet, exactly.

Just the kind that comes after church clothes are hung back up, after the good plates are washed, after the neighbors have waved from their driveways and gone inside with their own families.

My wife had been gone six years by then, and I had learned how to set a table for one without making a ceremony out of it.

One plate.

One fork.

One coffee mug with a chip on the handle.

I told myself that was enough.

At 1:04 p.m., my phone rang on the kitchen counter.

The screen said Callie.

For twenty-seven years, that name had been my soft spot and my spine at the same time.

When she was five, she used to run down the hallway with her socks half falling off, yelling for me to look at whatever picture she had made at school.

When she was seventeen, she called from a gas station after her first fender bender, trying to sound grown while she cried into the phone.

When she married Simon Thorn, I told myself I was proud of her for building her own life.

That was the sentence I used when I missed her.

That was the sentence I used when her calls got shorter.

That was the sentence I used when she stopped dropping by after work, then stopped mentioning small things, then started saying she was just tired.

Love can turn into denial when fear wears a familiar voice.

I answered with a smile because I still wanted Easter to be Easter.

“Happy Easter, sweetheart.”

For half a second, all I heard was breath.

Not ordinary breath.

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